Hello my imaginary friend;)
have you just invented, so I have a contact person and not write anything in any empty space needs * g *
you wanted to talk about Catherine ... who she is , you ask? hmm - I've known for a long time ... so actually the three years I guess times ... even have to admit that I initially had my problems with it - not because I could not suffer, but because I'm that they can not stand me ... seemed to me really so wrong but luckily not * g *
Even then I realized that it's fun to write with it - it belongs the few women who can make me really laugh ... why is this so that we could struggle through the first since the end of last year to make phone calls to each other and generally spend more time together? do not ask me - no idea ... in any case it is true that implement we could only now, what was planned for years: A meeting in which we find to talk once more than five minutes - we have over the years but seen occasionally at parties, but real Talks have not shown as * g * be located in part surely has to have my foggy state of mind, which I had each been open
* laugh * But now it is simply that - we talk a lot ... call very much to chat a lot - and if time and budgets allow, we see ourselves ... we try to have a relationship, which is certainly not so easy on the distance ... about two and a half hours that we Separate ...
I listen quite precisely into me that you have to believe me and how often I hear the warning voices, trying to picture me, how much it will do if it does not work again ... but would you know what? the voices are much quieter than usual - and not as determined as ever .. and I think I also know what can be ... it always takes quite a while, ne until I NEM people really trust me and him against open - and always, if that was the case, I'm me so stiff on these people that there was more than brutal, or to see him go again ... I try this time, reasonably approaching the matter to go ... we are in love - so far we are upon us in the clear - but everything else is just not predictable ... no one knows what tomorrow or even may be over tomorrow and I will not be so naive to believe that this relationship is all solve my problems or that it will hold for all eternity. I'm concerned, they could keep quiet for so long - I am finally very happy with the current course of things, but I would not expect any miracles ... after two years, I know I am still able to fall in love - this is decided more than I even knew the end of last year;) and more importantly, I know there is an intelligent, witty and charming man who could fall in love with me - at a time, in whom I am and hope for many Things had lost ... no matter how the everything here goes - if it works or not, Catherine had me back on the right track, I think ... I was never depressed, excessively bad mood or without any dreams and prospects. .. but the relationship seen technically perverse bad last four years have of course left its mark and led, that I'm just exactly become what I never wanted to be.
And now I'm just back to other NEM, NEN better rate - like a toy locomotive, which is absolutely intact rumgelegen somewhere, and someone has put back on the rails and now is happy again to be able to pick up momentum in the right direction (hmm - am not just really sure if toy locomotives ever be happy about anything, can or otherwise may disclose any feelings, but irgendnem pathetic vein is probably gone through just me * gg *)
But that is precisely the point: I know quite a lot things I was not clear the other day ... I can love, be loved, can dream and work even on it to live those dreams and to experience - and if we notice that it is not yet working, then I'll be more than sad - after all, I have the feeling that it is right, with her just to spend my time - but these findings remain ... and I am grateful than I can show you probably as easily ... so now I'm trying not to be too euphoric, but neither do I want to be too skeptical, and rejoice in the fact that we have a really wonderful time spend together. Phew, I've written a lot - but have the feeling that I had more to say a lot more ... but will not say anything so publicly
* g * Now I will therefore end this monologue and turn my attention to the things of which I believe I can be better than me to speak here about the head and neck or write * g * are in fact continue to work on my music - and maybe I'll tell next time a little more about it - maybe you're interested, too;)
until then I wish all the best and good night ne;)
Casi
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